||[Jan. 7th, 2006|01:11 pm]
|||||serenade (classical) - ritsuko tamaki||]|
I just realized that I have finally hit a low point...... I'm slowly withering away from a broken heart...
How do I know this??? It's because half my ipod is full of sappy sad rejection songs...... Yay....
Well i've got to admit.. The boy sure did a number on me. I'm to used to having guys as friends and really never thought that I would ever fall in love until I met this boy last year... We actually had something last year and then he had to go be a guy and think I didn't like him, in truth I would blush immediately when I saw him and would always unknowingly lower my IQ to that of a rock...... Anyways he went out with another girl and I was crushed, not broken....... This year I saw him again and started to hang out with him as a normal friend who a actually spoke from her brain and not any other place. Well, I got to know him better. We went to some interesting places like the art museum one time, even though he has yet to found out I was raised to be in the art world and disrespecting Pierre Renoir and impressionist age infront of me isn't the most intellectual decision he's ever made, he also went with me to watch "pride and prejudice", sat and watched the whole thing which amazed me because it was in old english and he seemed truly interested. Anyways he is leaving now and actually blatantly told me that he didn't like me with such a cold voice. It's not the fact that he stated he didn't like me that hurt, it was that he said it like I wasn't even his colleague. That is what made my heart shatter, to not even be acknowledged as even a friend is the worst thing you can do to a girl of 17 and he, he is the only guy that i ever really just wanted to kick in the ball on the spot......